The Day I Asked My Mom to Crop Me Out of A Photo

Why I’m Tracking Every Day for a Year

365 Days of Data • Week One • June 15, 2026 When I graduated college at 21, I was 5’10” and weighed about 155 pounds. A little over thirty years later, on June 15, 2026, I stepped on the scale and saw 194.6 pounds. The highest number I’d ever recorded. Here’s what’s strange about that: there was no single day I woke up 40 pounds heavier. Nobody does. It happens the way it happens to most people. A pound here, two pounds there, absorbed so slowly you never feel it changing. A stressful year. More dinners out than I noticed. Birthdays, vacations, holidays. Just life, compounding quietly in the background for three decades. A few weeks before I stepped on that scale, I was scrolling through some recent photos and stopped on one from a family gathering. It took me a second to actually recognize myself in it. Not long after, my mom sent me a group picture from another event, and I texted her back and asked her to crop me out before she posted it anywhere.

“I’d rather edit myself out of my own life than do something about it.”

That’s the moment that actually stayed with me, far more than the number on the scale ever did. It wasn’t just that I didn’t like how I looked. It was realizing I’d reached a point where I’d rather edit myself out of my own life than do something about it.

I Wasn’t the Guy Who Never Exercised

Given all that, it would be easy to assume I’d just stopped moving somewhere along the way. That’s not true. I played soccer several nights a week, right up until a few years ago. During COVID I started running more frequently than I had in years. Runs of five miles became routine, and thirteen mile weekend runs weren’t unusual. Then my right hip finally decided we’d had enough together. A hip replacement in May of 2025 ended my running days and forced me to build a different routine. Looking back, I was genuinely consistent about working out over those years. That’s what makes the number so hard to square. The scale didn’t care how active I considered myself. It climbed so gradually I hardly noticed, until one ordinary Tuesday morning when I was standing there wondering how someone who’d call himself “fairly active” had ended up carrying nearly forty extra pounds.

The Other Half of the Equation: I Love Food

Here’s the part I can’t pin on anything else: I love food, and I love cooking it. I’m the cook in our family. I’ve got a smoker, a Blackstone, and a grill in the backyard. I don’t love yard work. I love standing next to fire. I’m always trying a new recipe or figuring out how to make the last one a little better. Food has always been one of the great joys of my life, and I don’t have any interest in pretending otherwise. I rarely looked at a rack of ribs and thought about the macros. I’m not sorry about that. It’s just true, and it’s part of how I got here. But I don’t want this story to become one where grilled chicken and steamed broccoli replace everything I enjoy. The bet I’m making instead is that I can keep cooking what I love, still enjoy restaurants, birthdays, vacations, and football Sundays, and lose weight anyway. If we’ve got a new restaurant on the calendar, I’m still going to spend the week before scouting the menu, treating it with the kind of planning most people reserve for a vacation itinerary. What has to change are the ordinary days. Somewhere along the way, dessert quietly stopped being reserved for birthdays and holidays. It became something that happened because… Tuesday. Portions got a little bigger. Empty calories became automatic instead of intentional. Tracking won’t magically fix those habits, but it will make them impossible to ignore.

I Already Knew the Fix. I Just Never Stuck With It.

Here’s the part that used to frustrate me most: this isn’t my first time trying to track my way out of this. I’ve done it many times over the past fifteen years, and every single time I stayed consistent, I lost weight. There has never been any real mystery about what works. The problem was never the method. The problem was staying with it. Tracking calories is tedious. Weight loss isn’t linear. The scale stalls for no apparent reason, life gets busy, and eventually I’d convince myself I didn’t need to log everything anymore because I’d figured it out. History suggests otherwise. When I looked honestly at every attempt, one number stood out. “My longest stretch of consistent tracking has been about three months.” Not because the process stopped working. Because I stopped doing it.

The Shift: Track the Process, Not Just the Outcome

So this time, I’m changing what I’m measuring myself against. I already know I’ll lose weight in the first month. I always do, when I’m locked in and motivated and the whole thing still feels new. That’s never been the hard part, and it’s not really what this project is testing. This isn’t a “lose X pounds by X date” challenge. It’s a commitment to track every single day for an entire year. Calories, protein, carbs, steps, calories burned, weight. All of it. Every day. Outside of a Fitbit on my wrist for steps and calories burned, I don’t have some dedicated nutrition tracking app for it. I’m doing it the way I do most things lately, which is talking into my phone and letting AI sort it out. If I hit a plateau, that’s data. If I overeat on vacation, that’s data. If Thanksgiving leaves me three pounds heavier, that’s data too. As long as I log it honestly, I’m still succeeding, because for the first time success isn’t completely measured by what the scale says. It’s measured by whether I show up tomorrow. That’s a small shift in thinking, but I think it changes everything. Under my old mindset, a plateau felt like failure. Failure made quitting easy. Now a plateau is simply another entry in the log.

Planning for What I Already Know Is Coming

I also know myself well enough, after fifteen years of trying this, to stop pretending I’m going to be perfect. Every November and December I gain weight. My birthday. Thanksgiving. Christmas. Holiday parties. Football weekends. At this point I could probably schedule it on the calendar. So I’m deciding now, five months before it becomes a problem, to assume I won’t lose weight. It’s to continue tracking, stay mindful, hold steady, or accept a couple of pounds without spiraling, and then get right back to the routine in January. That isn’t lowering the bar. It’s building a plan realistic enough to stick.

What This Blog Actually Is

This isn’t a twelve-week transformation. It isn’t another diet. It isn’t about pretending pizza, barbecue, vacations, and restaurants no longer exist. It’s an experiment that lasts a full year. This is the record of what happens when an ordinary 53-year-old who genuinely loves food decides to track everything honestly for 365 days. I’ll try to post weekly, alternating between looking back at the numbers and what they revealed, and anything else that caught my attention along the way: how I use AI to log what I eat, how I decipher a menu before we go somewhere new, a plateau, a mistake, or something the data taught me that I wasn’t expecting. I have no idea what the scale will say next June. Maybe I’ll lose 25 pounds. Maybe I won’t. What I’m much more interested in finding out is whether, a year from now, I’ll still be opening AI after a big family dinner and logging it anyway. Not because it’s easy, but because I actually kept going. I’ve quit right around that exact moment every single time before. This year, I just want to find out what happens if I don’t.

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